I want a man who would,

kiss me from my lips to my feet,

So slightly as he lures me

into this desire that

my soul solely desires,

Mastering all the curves of my body

As he worships the glory

Of a beauty rarely seen in plain sight.

Tie my hands down

As I submit to his dominance,

Pinch my nipples

And watch me long for his blessing.

Kiss my torso as he heads to the…

Aha paradise…

Spread my legs wide apart

as he blesses me with his tongue,

Grab his hair for the sweetness i feel

wants me to pull him closer and deeper,

And there it goes…

My whole body shivers from shivers from

this ecstatic feeling I feel

As I hold tightly

the silk sheets that lie on the bed.

Kiss my lips intensely

And play with my tongue,

As he slides through me

I gasp hard

as I look into his eyes,

Riding me slowly

As we make love,

No rush, just the two of us.

I moan while he thrust fast

And chokes me down my throat

Uin… how I love this feeling.

Wishing it did not have to end,

For he knows that,

Inside this place is warm

And outside it starts to pour

the first round of our love.

Love appears unexpectedly. The thing about it is, you take it as it comes. These are tales of mountains and valleys experienced in this journey of seduction, resentment and love.

Please Me Babe

Make love to me.

Kiss my lips slow and tender.

Bite my ear and flow to my neck.

Let my body shiver with all pleasures.

Pinch my nipples till i feel it in my clit.

Tease me as you watch me moan,

And let me cry out from this

mindblowing foreplay.

Turn me on like a light switch

and watch my darkest desires

flow out of me,

As you look me in the eyes

awed by the fire and fiery energy

that a woman’s body can release,

By just a light touch.

Take off my wet panties

As I long for you to be inside me.

Ride me slow and watch me suffer

from a desire fully fulfilled,

Then punish me by choking me slightly

as you increase your speed.

Make me give you all of me

And witness something magical

that you have never seen before,

And I promise that i will be

your one and only,

Because no one will satisfy you

the way I do.

24/10/16

I’ve been overthinking for the past one week.

Too many thoughts are vivid, it’s a little bit crazy.

Thinking about rights and wrongs,

Mistakes turning to decisions, reality over imagination

And my environment with those surrounding me.

Sometimes I am happy because I feel like,

I’m proud of what I’ve achieved but then I’ve disappointed myself

Knowing I could have done it in another way,

Or I’m acting before I think, which is really getting into me.

It’s eating up my mind ; I have to think about my choices

And compromise with the consequences.

I feel like at times I have freed my mind,

And I’m so outspoken helping me relate with the situation at hand,

But later on I feel like I’m still under slavery

And I have to reason according to society.

All I’m praying for is for God to help me discover my purpose,

And to fully free my mind and soul and just see beyond.

02/09/17

Today I got to see my life’s view.

Some things that we experience cannot be taken back.

But being a changed and strong person now,

I’ve learnt that I should always learn to accept,

And deal with my issues at that particular time,

Before it becomes a liability.

Falling down is surely temporary,

But giving up makes it permanent.

I’ve decided to stand, wipe off the dust and go for it.

So help me God because I’m certain I’ll be back on track,

And left no stone unturned.

Thank you God for being their for me,

When nobody believes in me.

Never forget that ‘No One Is Better Nor Smarter Than I’.

They have just been able to make the right decision,

To get them to their destinies.

I know it takes time,

But a bit of patience and sacrifices will pay off.

‘Self Love’

12/07/17

I always wondered why I always take it hard on myself.

I always think I have it all planned out,

But there’s that empty space in my heart.

Feels like I’m chasing love.

Am I just there for the feeling, or am I just scared of being lonely?

Do you know how dangerous this is when I get to think about it?

You have this empty void and you decide to cloud it,

Rather than to do some soul research.

This emptiness made me look for love in weird places and burn all my bridges.

The love I received was like a drug, I was addicted.

Little did I know, I would soon lack my dose and get withdrawals.

This made me mentally ill because it gave me anxiety.

You know what killed me?

Having to keep asking yourself if you’re worth it,

Or am I going to keep justifying myself just to be consoled,

And slowly die in the inside?

It took all these bad choices to finally discover the most important fact :

I was lacking ‘ ‘self love’.

How stupid was I to realize this now and made me realize that,

You can’t offer what you don’t have.

I couldn’t and still can’t believe till now, I lack some self love.

Now is when I can get to connect the dots.

This is what was at a miss and this is where,

All of this pain, anger and crooked decisions sourced from.

I need that confidence, esteem and appreciation of oneself,

To be able to offer love to someone else.

Trust me it’s so hard, when you realize that,

You have to start at that delicate part you know…

To start with, I need to let go of everything or anyone

That is making me feel like I have to try / please them.

It’s really unhealthy and difficult holding on to a love where,

You are not assured or do not know if they really need you.

I guess I have to concentrate on me first,

Gain some positive vibes and energy,

To be able to transfer this energy to my ecosystem.

01/02/18

I heard a chat with my mum ,

And I could say that she did open my eyes.

When you get to this point, you have to change your perspective,

And look at situations happening around.

Do you sometimes feel like you can take back everything you’ve done,

And do them afresh?

The sad part is, it is impossible.

Guess I’ll have to be more cautious with my future,

And really think before I act because sometimes,

You have to face your problems due to your consequences,

Rather than run away from them.

Everything makes sense.

Everything / anyone that I didn’t like appeared to be,

What I’m struggling with, and these are people I’m not supposed to give a fuck about.

But I realized that it’s all about our nature and energy.

Anything we give out has a different frequency,

Depending on the energy built around it.

So everything positive / negative will definitely play out,

Because it is what you’re thinking about / you least wanted it.

Could be your friends, family or anyone but you.

So I guess we should feel good on a daily,

To send out positive energy and receive it.

18/01/17

Ever felt like the whole world is against you?

Every step forward is literally two step backwards.

I’ve been trying to figure it all out,

But it’s quite a hard nut to crack,

Nothing is falling into place.

Sometimes I wonder if i’m conscious,

Or just a dead girl walking.

I tried to see the world from a different point of view,

And I was finally getting a solution,

Till I figured out it was more than just having a perspective,

Rather living by it.

Trust me it isn’t easy because only a few,

Took a chance on this road.

I realized that all of humanity just wants the material possession,

And social status to be,

able to build a social class.

Try to prove to the society that they have made it,

And forgetting the most important thing i.e ‘PURPOSE’

Does money really answer it all?

Does it buy happiness?

Does it unite us?

Well I really doubt it …

I think it’s more than the tangibility,

More than the physical appearance,

Cause we are all pretty but still fighting a battle,

Going through a face of ‘perfection’ which is nearly impossible,

Because the body can never be perfect.

What if we focus on something much more deeper ; the soul.

I bet that’s the only thing in me that can ever be satisfied.

The body lacks gratitude, always waiting and wanting more,

Till you discover you really never had it in the first place.

I have so many questions to ask but, who to ask?

They are always going to be watching out on you

To make sure you are never above them,

And still claim to be your friends.

This universe is messed up, we get to dodge bullets

For those who are not worth it all in the name of ‘LOVE’.

But that’s what we always get,

For letting them let us burn our bridges,

And holding on to the ashes.

I just guess it’s all humanity,

We are all looking for something that we all have,

Because it is never enough.

15/08/17

Sometimes I feel like love is a twisted rope.

Do you sometimes just hate being told words that have no meaning?

I used to hate the feeling of being lonely,

But the ones we hope to feel the void, make you feel more empty.

Make you ask yourself questions you don’t have answers to.

The worst part, we know that, what we feel could literally kill us,

Bur we let ourselves suffer rather than the thought of being alone.

Just a simple eye contact and goofy smile cost me,

Right now i’m at a place i can’t even control,

Surviving on cigarette burns, booze and my vulnerability.

You know it’s a bit crazy how we get to love hard,

And give our all to someone who never needed it in the first place…

Its so unfair how we are born to love, then cursed to feel.

Gives a nostalgic feeling.

I think we all need someone who makes us feel free,

Able to express ourselves without judgement.

18/08/17

I came to realise, our greatest bondage is sex.

The ability that enables us to love and express passion.

It’s so strong because it’s a form of intimacy

that enables us to confide in that one person.

Be able to feel safe and complete.

I guess I can’t be a whore lol!

Cause I guess it’s something really sacred to me.

I can’t experience it with just anyone.

The chemistry has to be there.

That static feeling when bodies touch / just a simple kiss.

I can solemnly swear, I can tell if the fire is still on,

If I feel the spark the moment we kiss.

But it’s crazy, cause most of the times

when we need these people next to us,

they are never there.

And the emptiness creeps in,

Reminiscing moments every single time to feel their presence,

And act like we’re okay.

But that’s what we all need to feel normal I guess..